I'm gonna post on here. because i dont think anyone else uses this, so im hoping no one cares enough to read this. I need help. I don't know whats wrong with me. I hang on too much. I get hurt too easily. I do stupid things, and I don't care that I could hurt someone. I get what I want. I actually want to be a slut. I think I get punished for these things too. Because I've been on an emotional roller coaster ride for the past couple of weeks. I miss my friends. The ones I never get to see really. I miss Joseph. He's supposed to be "my best guy friend ever" and right now its not even like that. and I know my friends get tired of hearing about him. They get tired of me complaining how hes such a sucky friend, because i get tired of listening to myself complain. But i've gotten so close to him that I kinda really need him. I want to talk to him about things, without feeling like i am annoying him. I know things have changed, considering his girlfriend is pregnant, but I don't want to lose him ever. He may be an ass to me, and others as well, and leave bruises on me, but that doesn't even bother me. because its not like hes an abusive person. Hes my best friend, that I feel like theres more between us than that. Idk, i just want him to come around more than once a month basically. And now that hes done with school, I'll probably never get to see him. whatever. I'm tired of crying for no reasons, i'm tired of my stupid body, and my stupid stomach, and my stupid big feet, which i cant do a damn thing about. I'm tired of my job. I'm very grateful i have one, but its just blah.
I just need a friend.
