but yet. im always always always jealous of something. if it seriously was so ugly to me, why do i feel it. why do i allow myself to drown in it even sometimes. it seriously doesnt make sense to me. but i guess the saying " you cant always get what you want" goes true for me and everyone else. no matter what people say, they will be jealous of something in their lifetimes. it doesnt matter what it is. the way someone looks, who likes who, their clothes, their boyfriends, their cars, cash, house, anything and everything you can be jealous of. i need to stop that feeling now. i need to learn to be happy with what i got because its only what i have, and maybe i'll never get what i want. you know? so why not be happy with what i got. great friends, great family a pretty healthy self. not too fat, not too skinny. and im attractive-ish. so i guess for now i am going to try my hardest to not let feelings of jealousness overcome me, and im going to be happy.
anyways... i'll talk about prom some more. about how super excited i am. or the fact that if i dont shape up, ima definitely pop right outta my dress in the limo. its like oh-em-gee scary that my dresss wont fit on prom. rawr. that'd be the end of the world. and i still dont know what im going to do with my makeup or hair for prom.. at all. and im not concerned, which i should be. asldkf. blah.
what if im catching strep throat. causeee, quite honestly, thats what it feels like. and my sister and dad had it.. so uhm, yeah. not cool. or good. hopefully i wont though. kaygo!
“Jealousy is nothing more than a fear of abandonment”
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