i dont like all this crap.

i dont like arguing. i dont like how you cant understand me. i dont like not being able to talk to you until like six-seven every single day. i dont like how we hardly even talk about anything when we do talk. i dont like how you didn't call me and tell me goodnight last night. i dont like how you were so mean to me yesterday. I dont like how i cried last night. i dont like how you dont know whats going to happen. i dont like that i can barely see you, because we dont have rides. i dont like how you hang out with him. i dont like how you smoke allll the time. But i do like you. I like your kisses. i like that you are the sweetest to me most of the time. i like how you can brighten my day by saying just one thing. i like how you think im flawless, when im far from it. i like how you call me every night to say good night. i like that when we do hang out, we have a good time. I like your hugs, and your hands, and how they feel so right when they touch me. I like the way you make me freaking feel, its incredible. But here's the problem. What if you never understand when im upset, and its always going to be my fault. I'm scared of that, im so scared that you wont even give me time to adjust to you and your ways, and you'll leave, again. I wouldnt be able to take that. I wouldnt trust again, because you say you wont leave, but how do i know you're not lying. You said you're going to prove to me that we can make this work and we're going somewhere with it. But honestly, im scared to fucking death.

now that that is out, im going to have the best day (: