english class, third period, this is what i write:

im so annoyed. i absolutely hate everything about the class. i hate being here. i hate the people and her voice and the way she waddles. i hate how "perfect" she thinks she is... but yet shes not. i hate how i feel so alone. and how no one really likes me. i hate not having anyone to like anyways. i hate my stomach. and my hair. and how big my hands and feet are. i hate how i dont understand math and how im going to fail it, and be in facetoface forever, which i hate too. i hate not being skinny enough. and i hate how she yells at me for stupid stuff. i hate not seeing my cousins and i hate how my grandma makes me feel. i hate that my family has no money and i hate how we have no car. i hate how my mom has 3000 boyfriends and i hate how she woke me up. i hate how small my house is. and how she chews her gum. i hate how i always want what i cant have. i hate that i love food and so i cant just stop eating it. i hate how he likes her and i how i always fall for the wrong people. i hate his looks and how he disgusts me. i hate doing projects and i hate how everyone thinks shes pretty. i hate that i have no boyfriend to show my cute panties to. i hate how i have no job. i hate that my dad has depressionand how hes not happy. i hate how he still loves my mom. i hate how annoyed i get of my friends and i hate how sometimes i dont even want friends. i hate how my mom struggles. i hate feeling not good enough. i hate how im so scared to be overweight when im older. i hate how overweight my little sister is. i hate wearing size thirteen jeans, and size twelve shoes. i hate i cant wear a two piece. i hate being jealous. i hate how my older sister has her boyfriend because i hate that i miss her so much. i hate how my mom is alway son the phone, if not that, the computer. i hate my teeth and i hate my face actually. i hate how i cant just go out whenever i please. i hate how i look down on my dad for being depressed. i hate how i didnt get my license. i hate broken promises. i hate my cell phone. i hate that i didnt get my piercing. i hate when people get made fun of. i hated being made fun of. i hate being called fat. i hate how you steal my bestfriends. i hate how overdramatic you are. i hate how i cant stand you, cause you are my bestfriend. i hate that the guys like you, cause you're not even that cute. i hate when he puts his two-cents in. i hate how you beg for attention. i hate how hard life is. i hate taking medicine. i hate trashy girls. i hate the way i think. i hate wearing clothes, but i hate my body. i hate teases. i hate fake people. i hate literature. i hate when skinny people call themselves fat. i hate how happy i seem. i hate how all i do is play solitaire. i hate when no one texts me. i hate when fat girls wear clothes that are too small for them. actually, i just at my life, thats all.

this is just random, all true, but sometimes, i have to get it out. or i'll explode, which is what i did today.