im a new me.

People say and do things, and its so great when i dont let them bother me. I feel on top of the world. Because if i dont let what they say affect me, then i cant get upset. I cant feel depressed. now if its major, then yeah, it'll probably affect me. But can i ask something? Why DO people have to be mean? especially anonymous. Like if you really dont like something about me, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me to my face.

anyways.
i've tried.
and tried.
and tried. and tried.
butttt- i. cant. control. it.

I cant control being jealous. Its just who i am. i hate it. Every freaking second of it. And im jealous of the stupidest things. Things that aren't worth my time. People who aren't worth my time being jealous of, i am. So, i have to stop. i have to control it. Because i need to be happy within myself, with what i got for now.

Last night was fun. I really do love my friends. They are great, and Meghan did excellent in her play. i got a 96 final in art. thats pretty darn good. i didnt deserve it. at all if we're being completely honest, but I'll take it :)

I'll say it again and again for now -- I LOVE LIFE.