im so freaking happy.

and it scares me. but my mom told me, "dont let the fear of getting hurt hold you back" and its very true. Like, i will always be afraid of getting screwed over, always, because its happened so muchhh. This time, im even scared-er. Because, first, i've been screwed over by him once, so it makes me so uneasy. But, you dont understand how he makes me feel. omg. Like hes such a dork, and i love every ounce of his dorkness. And hes so cute. And just so freaking sweet to me. How i deserve this? idk. Im still learning to get used to it. He gives me butterflies. Honestly, i like him so much. I need to know whats going to happen. He needs to kinda tell me, soon preferably. We'll see where this goes<3

i cant stop smiling.