can i be honest?

i hate hate hate going out with my grandma shopping and what not. First- i have to listen to her bitchy self complain the entire time. I mean im grateful for her and all, but it has to be her way or nobody else way. Then, i get discouraged because im trying on bathing suits and nothing is fitting the way i want it to|: So im like whatever. Then, i feel bad because my dad is like so overweight and he breathes real heavy, and that honestly makes me feel super bad! I mean i cant control it but still, it affects me.

Anyways, the trip to the lake was fun(: i caught four fish, actually five, but one got away before i lifted it to the land. lol. And i swam in the water, which was pretty chill. it was just overall relaxing and calming and good to get away from some shit.

I need to sit here, think about everything, and decide whats best for me. About everything. And im with jasmine, im tired of being this way. I'm ready for my confidence and my fat to go away. kaythanks.

im so freaking annoyed right now. thanks.

one more thing. i think my little sister has a boyfriend ;D
its not fair lol.