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"Oh Heather you look so skinny, you've lost so much weight" I actually love hearing that, but I wish I could see this " skinnier Heather " that everyone else sees. I mean, maybe i've lost a few pounds, or maybe im just hiding it better. I don't honestly believe i've lost that much weight. Maybe only losing five pounds really does make a difference.

Is it bad that I wear things, say things, and post things so people will like it? Or isn't that what everyone does. You do things that people will remember you by and so you get complimented. Thats how I am with my makeup. More so last year, but this year I have my days when I do do my cool designs and stuff. Idk. I dont like putting make up on a lot anymore, but unlike meghan, with makeup i distract myself away from my hair. My hair is being completely gay and I used to say if my makeup looks good then I dont really care about my hair. But honestly, my hair is really bothering me how its not working out. Hopefully I can get it cut soon or actually cut it myself, but I guess we'll see.

I have this braclet. I've had it since I went to the beach with aleks. We got matching ones actually. And supposedly, when it falls off, you fall in love. Wanna know a secret? It tricked me. With the whole Ryan thing, I thought I was in love ( boy was i SO wrong ) and so I think the braclet went along with my thought process and started to come off. So me being stupid was like "oh! im making the right decision. my braclet is going to fall off and we're gonna end up in love." HAHA. Definitely not what was supposed to happen obviously. Because its still on my wrist, just halfway unraveled.

People have always told me this, over and over again. When you stop worrying and looking for guys, they'll come to you. Honestly, this is easier said than done. Its so hard not to try and look for a guy. I mean what does that even mean? Does it mean that I can't talk about how cute someone is or something? Or does it mean i just need to stop trying to find someone to like all the time. Cause if its the latter one, im pretty positive I can do that one. There is really no one for me even to like anymore. I mean I can pretend yeah, but it'd be stupid of me.

This weekend i'm very excited. I was supposed to make plans with aleks tonight but I think i'm really just going to go home and get some rest and do as much as my homework as possible. Sorry baby D: I wouldn't probably be much fun anyways. But this weekend is matthews alive, which is this festival we go to every year and i LOVE it. My family and me are going. I think it should be fun, esp since my dad got paid. HOLLUH. ;) And hopefully there will be cute boys for Heather to look at, thats all :). So thats what im most excited for. Then I think sunday/monday i'm hanging out with the tutus. I think i'm finally going to see Eclipse. Well hopefully.. cause I havent even seen it yet. So yuhp.

Now that you've read my pointless blog, have a wonderful life!