My legs are killing, my feet are killing me and my throat hurst, but i had fun last night (: The only part i really hate about scarowinds is allll the couples. Its like everywhere i turned everyone had a boyfriend/girlfriend. I mean, hey, they were all cute and stuff, but I guess my jealousy came out. I just wish I knew what it was like to fully experience cute cuddly things.
You see, guys have the tendency to only want to use me. To only be what they call "friends with benefits". and it makes me seem like im not good enough to get the respect for them to want me to be their girlfriend. They want me to suck their dicks, no strings attached. Six months ago, I probably would have been up for it ( not exactly the sucking dick part, but just making out.) But i've changed. I have finally told myself I deserve SO much more than just a makeout session. Just random screwing. Because that got me nowhere but hurt and confused. Boys don't want to date me atm, and that's fine, but I don't want to hook up with them atm either. So, they can leave me alone for that, because I am happy with who I am. and I dont need guys to make me any happier.
I'm going through some changes in my life. Be patient with me if i'm not always so understanding. I'm learning to love myself first and foremost. And be happy.
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